Dear World – Note From the Author in the Middle

2013-05-19 16.41.26There is a lot of timing involved in a writing career.  Anyone who does not believe this should pay attention.  Here’s a story for you…and a commentary on where I find myself these days.  This is not a complaint, or a call for, well, anything…just what I do.  When I write in this blog, I try to adhere to my own advice to write what hurts…

When I started writing back in the 80s, horror was in a boom.  Due to circumstances that could have gone other ways, I became a writer of horror and dark fantasy early on and I had a unique opportunity.  I either blew that opportunity, or avoided it.  The votes are still out on that.  I had an agent at one point who called while I was away at sea.  If I’d been there when that call came in, there was “a slot”.  What this meant, at the time, was that pretty much whatever I’d turned in (and I had books) would have been published in the raised-foil tsunami of horror.  That probably would have irrevocably changed my career. Maybe I’d still be riding the wave – maybe I’d be drowning in the aftermath of the big crash.  No way to tell, because I was out at sea, and missed it.

I set off on my own multi-directional path.  Star Trek, White Wolf, Vampires, horror, science fiction, fantasy – mystery and thrillers.  I’ve written them all.  Most of my books have gotten good to great reviews.  I’ve won awards.  People in some small circles know who I am.  I write a lot, and that will probably never change.

Along the way, though, something weird happened.  I never reached the heights of best-sellerdom, or even the upper middle-class of writing.  I just did okay.  I barely missed a lot of things that would have changed everything, and I kept writing.

Recently I started noticing that – despite the fact people know me and congratulate me when I finish a project, they don’t read them.  It’s not that no one likes the books – people who do read them like them – sometimes even love.  I don’t see any of those dreaded threads on message boards about how no one gets how I am still writing, or they couldn’t get through my books.  I also don’t see anyone starting threads about me in any positive way, or any excitement over whatever I’m working on.  What I get – mostly – is nothing.  Nothing at all.  Those who have always been famous remain famous.  Many newer authors, some awesome, others mediocre, and even a few I consider a long way from ready for prime time, get read.  People gather together and read their books in groups.  They line up to buy them before they are even published.  For my books, people are happy to enter a contest and maybe get the book for free, but buying seems to just never happen, and when people DO buy the books…well, if they ever read them I seldom hear about it.

I’m the author in the middle, currently.  I still believe I’ll find the way out – not sure what it will be. If I do make it out, I hope those who “discover” me also come back and read the older books – the ones I’ve spent a lifetime writing.  I hope they like/hate/talk about them.  Mostly, I hope they read them.

-DNW

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