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One Off from Prime

David Niall Wilson

One Off From Prime

The walls of the shelter were dingy  and gray.  The paper was white, or had been white.  Too many hours stuffed in the bottom of Angus’ bag had dampened the sheets and marred their sheen.  Most of the pages were empty, windows and doors to places the words hadn’t yet taken him; even doors need a new coat of paint now and then – a hinge, or a knob replaced.  Angus’ paper, as his mind, remained unhinged and without knobs or slots, collecting flecks of dust and smears of sweat and blood.

He wasn’t alone in the room, but he might as well have been.  Angus stood adrift in a whirling miasma of images and words so thick they obscured the bland walls and walking, talking worlds that orbited him.

A thin, wisp of a woman sidled up sneakily and glanced sidelong into Angus’ vacant eyes.  She eased along the table, trailed her bony fingers over its surface and watched with bird-like intensity for any reaction.  Angus didn’t flinch.  The woman’s dry, pale lips curled into a cruel grin.  Like a striking snake her hand darted past the sheet of paper Angus held flat on the table and gripped the strap of his old, green duffle bag.

There was a blur of motion, and the woman screamed.  Between her fingers, gouged into the surface of the table and quivering, stood Angus’ pen.  It didn’t touch her skin, but it prevented the sliding of the duffle across the table.  The plastic shaft of the pen was shattered, but the inner plastic tube and the ballpoint were intact, quivering from the impact.

Without a word, Angus worked it free of the table.  The woman fluttered back and away.  She sputtered words that died in strangled bleats of sound and a yellow mist of spittle.  Angus paid no more attention to her departure than he had to her approach.  He stared at the paper in front of him and willed the words to stop spinning and sort themselves.  He had to capture them and bind them to the paper to get them out from in front of his eyes and behind his ears.

He thought – no, he knew – that there was one word among them that could set him free, if only he could unravel the rest and place it properly.  He vaguely remembered others who had once helped with the placement, but though he knew there had been three, he couldn’t recall names or faces.

None of those around him saw the words.  They saw a thin, emaciated man of thirty or so years with thick black hair that dropped over broad, muscular shoulders, their strength belied by thin, protruding shoulder blades.  They saw wide eyes that stared at everything except what was directly in front of them and long, slender fingers perpetually wrapped around a pen, or a pencil, or a paintbrush. 

One time the counselors found Angus in the alley behind the shelter with a piece of charcoal in his hand.  He’d covered half the back wall with a single long, rambling sentence. 

A young woman, thinner still than the insectile Angus, stood midway along the wall, reading.  Her slender, beak-like nose was pressed so close to the wall that its tip was black from accidental encounters with charcoal and brick.  Her hands were filthy from trailing along behind.  She wore thick cats-eye glasses that slid down her nose and had to be pressed back into service every few minutes.  This action streaked her face with more of the charcoal.

When the counselors led the two back inside she looked ready for a combat raid, camouflaged and intense.  Angus looked confused and on the verge of saying something he couldn’t quite remember.  He’d written it down, but she’d caused it to blur.  She’d taken the words into her pores or her skin and the ridges of her fingers.  The counselors took the charcoal, and by the time anyone thought to try and read what Angus had written, the words had faded and smudged.

Angus didn’t remember the wall.  He remembered that there had been words, but not what they’d been.  He remembered the young woman’s face.  He remembered the dark swatches of charcoal embedded in the pores of her skin.  He remembered her expression, and her eyes.  He’d wanted to reach out, brush his fingers over her cheeks and drag the black, dusty smudges back into the proper order.  He’d memorized her features in an instant and imagined them covered in letters, the words merging to one long statement encompassing everything he was unable to say.  He thought she was more beautiful without the words, but had no way to be certain.

Now he stared at the blank paper, clutched the shattered pen and tried to bring her face into focus and transfer it to the page.  He imagined the lines of letters, like soldiers, or the bricks on a wall.  His lips moved, but before he could record the wispy words they slipped away and new ones took their places, always a step ahead.  His hand trembled, but he didn’t touch the pen to the paper.

***

The girl sat in the corner of the room, huddled in a severe chair of hard wooden slats.  She clutched her knees to her chest and her chin rested between them.  She gazed in unwavering concentration at Angus’ profile.  She saw the paper clearly, and the pen.  She knew the tremble in his hand and the nervous shake of his head.  She’d seen both so many times they’d become a part of her.

She didn’t have to huddle in the shelter.  She didn’t have to watch this skinny man stare at his paper and chase the words flitting through his head.  She had a home, and a name, a family who wondered where she had gone, and friends – acquaintances, really – who noted the empty spaces she would have filled in their own small worlds.  But none of that was real. They knew the thin, wispy shell of her, but her connection to Angus was much deeper.  Given time, she’d fade from their minds as surely as angus’ words had faded from the alley wall.

***

Angus knew she was there.  He felt her.  He sat, and he tried to imagine the lines of her face on his paper, but he refused to turn and watch her watching him because it was no good.  The face smudged with charcoal had been cleaned.  The words, if they were still there, were hidden too deeply for him to recapture.  If he looked at her now, the earlier image of her would dissolve, and be lost.   He would still have her eyes, of course, and that was a temptation.  They were eyes that had watched him without guile, and without judgment.  They were hungry eyes as eager to see him find the order in the words, or behind them, as he was to provide it.  They had seen the words, if only for a few intense moments.

Others watched, as well, but not for long, and not with much interest.  An old Italian man in a faded army uniform shirt covered in colorful patches shuffled by.  He looked like an ancient, rotting parody of a boy scout.  He wore two pairs of pants and had a variety of odd items tied to his belt, protruding from his pockets, and slung about his neck.  His hair, which would have been a fine blend of white and gray had he bathed, was dark and greasy and clung to his liver-spotted scalp in sparse patches.   The man glanced over Angus’ shoulder at the blank page and snorted.

“Shouldn’t write it down,” he said.  His voice was weak and formed of shrill, reedy tones that shattered in the air like thin icicles.  “They’ll read it.  They’ll know.  Never write it down.”

Then he shuffled off with his hands covering his pockets as if afraid the things he carried would leap out and escape.  Angus didn’t look up.  He sat with his hand hovering over the page expectantly.

Some spoke as they passed.  Some stared at the paper, or at the back of his head.  Some made faces behind his back and then walked on.  A tall black man walked around to the far side of the table, directly across from Angus and stared down at the point where the pen had slammed into the tabletop.  His lips moved constantly.  Now and then his shoulder dipped, or he shuffled his feet.  His hips swayed to music no one heard.

He leaned in and inspected the table.  A small pile of dust and shattered plastic circled the point where Angus had slammed his pen into the wood.  The black mans studied it.  He cocked his head, checking perspective, and then seated himself in a chair. Angus didn’t look up.  The black man reached into his pocket and pulled out a small pouch.  From this he extracted a razor blade.  The cold steel glittered like fire in the dim light, catching stray flickers from the bare, yellowed overhead bulb that illumined the room.  It was the kind of blade used by artists and carpenters, braced on one edge with a rounded shield to protect the fingers.

The man’s hand darted out.  He smacked the blade loudly on the table and drew it toward himself.  The razor swept the plastic shards and dust across the surface, his fingers nimbly dropping and dragging, scooping the remnants into a pile.  He was careful and he missed nothing.  When he had it all in a heap in front of him, he raised the blade and chopped at the pile.

Everyone in the room except Angus, and the girl, looked up sharply.  The man brought the blade up, and down, up and down; his fingers flew and quickly pulverized the larger shards of plastic, cutting them to dust, reshaping the mound, and cutting again, each run through making a finer powder.  No one in the room spoke.  The black man’s lips never stopped moving, but if he spoke, there was no sound to accompany it, and if he was answered it was not from within the room.

When the plastic was reduced to glittering dust, the man stopped and studied it.  He drew the blade through the center, split the pile, and then split those piles.  He cocked his head again.  His shoulder dipped.  He squinted with one eye and shivered, as if a particularly beautiful rhythm had rippled through his long, lanky body.  The ripple ended at his fingers and they danced.

When he was done, there were six lines on the tabletop.  Three of them were broken lines.  Each of the six lines was of equal length; all were perfectly parallel with one another.  The man carefully returned his blade to its pouch, rose from his chair, and did a careful quickstep in place, dropping his hip and throwing his hand out to one side.  He turned and walked away.

Angus looked up.  The girl rose, came to stand beside him, and stared down at the lines.

Behind them, the door to the room opened and the world poured in.  The sudden shift in air pressure sent the dust whirling off the table and away, erasing the trigram.

A voice called out, “Angus Griswold?”

***

The room they put him in was white-walled.  The table he sat at was covered in white Formica.  There were windows, but they were the kind that was only transparent in one direction.  On his side, they were mirrors.  Angus stared at one for a long time, intrigued by the lines of his own face staring back at him.  He wondered briefly if, on the far side of that mirror, the words made sense.  He had the odd sensation that he recognized himself, and then it was gone.

They had the girl too.  She was in another room.  He felt her presence, though he hadn’t seen her since being closed off.  He hadn’t seen anyone, in fact,  since a very stiff-backed young man in a white jacket had brought him a white cup.  He half-expected it to be filled with milk in the colorless void, but it was coffee.  Angus loved coffee, but he hadn’t touched it.  He wasn’t afraid of being poisoned, he was concentrating.  The room was white, but the coffee was dark, like the words, and it distracted him.  He watched the white walls and day-dreamed that ink might sweat out through hidden pores in their surface and flow into words and phrases.

***

In another room, not so bright, and not so white, the girl sat.  On the desk in front of her was the remnant of a day planner.  The spine had cracked and worn away and the pages were loose.  She kept them bound in a pair of large rubber bands she’d stolen from the post office.

She glanced up as the door to the room opened.  A tall black man in a dark suit entered, closed the door behind him, and crossed to the far side of the desk.  He took a seat and placed a folder on the table in front of her.  His eyes were dark brown, so dark they seemed black, and she saw that the cuticles of his fingers were meticulously groomed.  He steepled his fingers.

She glanced up at him.  He wore thick framed glasses.  The wrinkles at the corners of his eyes looked as though they might be accustomed to humor, but in that moment his gaze was flat and serious.

“Why am I here?” she asked.

“I think you know the answer to that.” He replied.  “I am Mr. Johnson.  You don’t know me, but I believe you are very familiar with a former associate of mine, Mr. Griswold.  You may also have heard of my employer,  Mr. King.”

“I don’t know anyone named Griwsold,” she said.

“His first name is Angus.”

She didn’t answer.

“Do you have any idea what Angus did when he worked for us, Miss Prine?”

Her head jerked up.  She had not known that they were so close to knowing her name.  She smiled, but she tucked her head to hide it, and she didn’t answer.

“That’s unfortunate.  It seems that Mr. Griswold has also forgotten.”

Johnson fell silent for a moment, then flipped open the folder on the desk.

“Angus Griswold was a financial analyst.  He was very good at his job.  Possibly too good.   He and his team had the task of scanning pages and pages of computer data and…anticipating.”

“Anticipating?”

“I think that’s the best way to word it.  Angus had a way of seeing a very large amount of data at once.  This ability of his allowed him to anticipate trends, predict problems, and circumvent inefficiency. One thing my company loathes beyond all else, Ms. Prine, is inefficiency.”

“I don’t…”

A sharp jangle of sound cut off his reply.   Johnson slid a thin cell phone from his pocket.

“Yes?”

She watched his face, but his expression never changed.

“You’re sure,” Johnson said.  “Four hours, then?  I see.”

He flipped the phone closed and turned back to her.

“There’s not much time.  Mr. Griswold has been working on something very important for a very long time.  He indicated to us that he’d discovered something big – something profound.  That knowledge could prevent a very large disaster from taking place, and Mr. King is very interested in obtaining it.  Mr. Griswold told us the nature of the disaster, and even gave us a rough idea of when it might take place.  Unfortunately, we did not immediately see the importance of what he told us, and at that point his behavior had become…unstable.  The file he left behind is incomplete. The single data point he failed to mention before disappearing into the streets was how to stop it.”

“He doesn’t know,” she said.  “He’s been trying to figure it out.  He believes that he will be able to write it down.”

“How do you know?”

“He wrote it on the wall.  I read it.  It was too much to take in at a single reading, and they came and took us away.  The words were gone, smudged and ruined.  I had them…but they slipped away.”

“Do you remember?”

“No.  Not all of it.  I’ve written some of it down, but it’s not perfect.  There was a design.”

“Design?”

“Six lines.  It was a trigram, like in the I Ching.  I drew it.”

She fumbled at her ruined day planner.  Her hands shook, and she had trouble spreading the pages.  When she found it, she slid it free and turned it to face Johnson.

____________

____________

____________

_____    _____

_____    _____

_____    _____

“What is it?” Johnson asked.

“It’s a Hexagram.  I looked it up at the library.  It means Obstruction.  Stagnation.”

“He wrote this?”

She shook her head.  “No.  He caused it.”

Johnson stared at her a long moment, then made some unspoken decision.

“You have to help us.  There is not time to explain the entirety of what is at stake, so I will be brief.  I believe that you understand a lot more than you let on.

She held her silence.

“If we do not find the answers we seek, a few tiny calculations in a very large algorithm will return bad data.  At first, no one will see.  It won’t even matter.  Over time, the errors will multiply. There is a critical point after which, even if we were to discover the original error, nothing we could do would halt its progress.  That error is embedded deep in the database behind the world’s largest finance and credit system.”

“What can one tiny error do?”

“One error is incorporated in a thousand calculations, the results of which will fuel a hundred thousand more. The integrity of the data will be compromised within minutes.  When the world gets the first hint that we do not have control of the system – that their millions of dollars are suddenly in question without even a good direction to point their finger, there will be anarchy.  Mr. King believes that within only a few moments, automatic fail-safes and security protocols will shut down everything.”

“Everything?” she asked.  “Surely there are backups?  Contingencies?”

“Also corrupt.  We do not believe we will be able to pinpoint the entry point of the error.  We believe it is possible that Mr. Griswold can, or already has and has forgotten.  We believe, in fact, that he’s been trying to put what he already knows in words that others can understand.  Even if we found the error and returned the system to its current state it’s likely trust and confidence will have eroded sufficiently by that time to cause worldwide panic.”

“Where is he?” she asked.

“He is safe, for the moment.  As safe as any of us can really be.”

She stared at Johnson for a long moment.

“I need to see him.”

“Why?”

“He needs to remember.  He believes that I can help.  He won’t look at me, and I think this is because, in his mind, he will either find what he is looking for in the lines of my face, or will find that it is lost forever, and he’s afraid.”
“I see,” Johnson said.  “We will give him time, then.  The room we put him in is one giant blank canvas.  The walls are made of dry-erase white board. The windows are mirrors.  The table is white, the floor is white.  Soon he will be given markers.  We have, at the best estimate of those who have an inkling of what Mr. Griswold has seen, about four hours.  If he can’t write it down before then; if we get so close to the deadline that there is no hope, I will take you to him.  You may be that hope.”

She continued to stare at him.  Johnson remained unruffled.

“Coffee?” he asked.

She nodded, and then looked away, trying to see through the walls to where Angus was seated.  She had visions of her own, had been having them since the first time she laid eyes on him so very long before.  In her dreams, the angels warned of fire.  They warned of destruction.  Each of them wore a very large, ticking clock on a golden chain, and the clocks were winding down.  In those dreams, men worshiped idols made of shifting symbols and scrolling numbers, falling away to dust.

Johnson slipped out of the room without a sound.  The door closed behind him and she stared at it, just for a moment.  He had not hesitated, or fumbled with the knob, but she knew it was locked.  Less than four hours.  The room didn’t even have a clock.

***

Johnson stood behind a row of three chairs.  The chairs faced a bank of huge monitors across which columns and patterns of numbers shifted and scrolled.  Each screen was divided into terminal windows, and different events triggered flashes of color.  In the chairs, a young Asian woman, an old gray-haired man, and a boy of about sixteen sat.  On the backs of their chairs, the names Meshe, Shad, and Abe had been scrawled across white nametags. They watched the scrolling numbers, working keyboards, trackballs and a bank of peripheral controls without once glancing away from the screen.

Johnson wanted to question them, but he knew that either they would ignore him, as per their instructions, or he’d likely cause a new set of problems by his interference.  When Angus had worked with them, there’d been a fourth chair. Mr. King had removed it when the prodigal walked out.

Johnson watched the numbers for a moment, but they meant little to him.  When they had been sifted down to spreadsheets and balanced equations, he’d understand them well enough.  In their current raw state, it was beyond his ability.  That was fine – it wasn’t his job.  His job was to be certain that the numbers did balance.  In the upper levels of the company, they joked that every transaction since the beginning of time flowed across those screens – that the Templars had kept records, and the Egyptians had been meticulous

The woman, Meshe,  gasped suddenly.  She didn’t stop working her controls, and she didn’t look away from the screen, but he knew that she’d caught something.  Her distress passed, and he knew it couldn’t be what Angus had seen.  These three were very good.  There had once been more than two dozen “watchers” working in shifts, and they had all been good.  None of them had borne Angus’ singular gift – or his neuroses. Now there were only three, and though Angus had spoken to them before leaving, none of them could find the fault, though they would no doubt remain vigilant.

Johnson turned away and left the room as silently as he’d entered.  He headed down a brightly lit hall and entered a glass-doored office at the far end. An elderly man, grey at the temples glanced up from where he’d been scouring reports on his desk.

“What has he said?” the man asked.

“Nothing.  He’s confused and barely coherent.  The girl isn’t much better.  I think it’s time to put them together and see what comes of it.”

“It’s our last shot.  If they can’t get it back in time…”

“I know,” Johnson said.  “Don’t think I haven’t considered walking out, buying a bunker in a survivalist camp and stocking up.  We haven’t got much time.  For all we know we don’t have any time at all.  We have to try it now.”

“Take her in,” the man said.

Johnson turned, hesitated, and looked back. 

“It’s been good working with you, Ezekiel.”

The older man smiled. It was a fleeting expression that looked lost in the patchwork of stress-fractures that made up his face.  Then he turned back to the papers, and Johnson slipped into the hallway, closing the door quietly behind him.

***

When the door opened, Angus didn’t look up.  The girl entered, and the door closed behind her.  She sat opposite him at the table.  He stared at the white surface, refusing to meet her gaze.

“You wrote it down once,” she said.  “In the alley.  You wrote it down, and it was all there.”

Angus twitched, but did not look up.

“I knew you’d get it.  I knew you’d find the words.  It’s why I watched, and why I read. “

“They’re gone.” Angus said.

She shook her head. She rose, circled the table, and stood directly beside him, but still he did not look up.  She reached out and stroked his cheek.  He didn’t pull back, but she felt the inner struggle.  He quivered as if unable to decide whether to press into her fingers, or to lean away.

“The words are not gone.  If they were gone, you’d be at rest. They are there, buzzing and crackling with energy, and you need them to stop.  We both need that.  The world needs that.  You started it, and only you can finish it.  It’s up to you.”

She stepped behind his chair, pulled it gently away from the table, then slid around and straddled him.  With one hand on each cheek she raised is head until he stared directly at her.

“It’s time,” she said.

Angus shivered, but he didn’t look away.  She leaned closer, and her features blurred.  At the end, he saw her lips, red and moist, and criss-crossed with tiny veins that shifted and rearranged.  They kissed and those crooked, wretched lines clarified.  Angus pulled back, just for an instant, but she held him fast.

His mind flooded with memories.  Lines of figures flashed past on mental monitors so fast it should have been dizzying, but he already knew them.  He felt each ripple and saw the tiny bugs nibbling away at the heart of the pattern.

He was vaguely aware when she began stroking her hips up and down.  He rose to meet her and wrapped her in his arms. He was so close.  He had walked so long in a world that buzzed and whirled that the clarity was painful. The haze beckoned. He itched to hold his pencils, or a piece of chalk.  The white walls streamed with row after row of symbols and numbers and he wanted to fill them in and trap them.  He felt her unbuttoning his shirt and then the hot touch of her flesh and then…he let them go.

***

Johnson and Ezekiel stood before a huge video monitor.  On the screen, Angus stood, disheveled and coated in sweat, before one of the white walls.  He held a dry erase marker in his hand, poised.  Behind him, the woman lay back across the table, spent.  It was difficult not to stare at her; something in the aspect of her pose gave her a sensuality her street-urchin attire and schizophrenic actions had hidden.  She did not look at Angus, but instead stared back at them through the monitor, as if well aware her naked flesh was on camera and reveling in the attention.

“My God,” Ezekiel said.  “Who is she?”

“You know who she is.  You know what she is.  What neither of us knew was how profoundly … real … she would turn out to be.”

“She calls herself Prine?” Ezekiel asked absently.

“I think we may have been mistaken.  It sounded like Prine, and we have assumed that to be correct, but upon closer examination of the original document, I believe she is called…Prime.”

“It’s her last name?”

“It’s her only name.”

“My God.”

“Not exactly, but…wait!  He’s writing.”

On the screen Angus reached out with the marker.  He started drawing horizontal lines.  After only a few seconds work the hexagram was complete.  “Obstruction”.  He stares at it, and then turns.

“There is no new flaw in the numbers,” he says. 

It’s not a question, but it’s directed to the girl.”

“Of course not.  There is only the one flaw.  You knew this once.”
“I know it again,” he said. 

He dropped the marker on the floor and it rolled under the table.  He walked to the table and lifted her to a sitting position.  She smiled into his stern gaze.  Angus leaned in and kissed her, and then turned toward the cameras.

“Numbers are pure,” he said.  “The system by which you calculate them is a language, and it is the closest to perfection man may ever come, but there are flaws.  There have always been flaws.  You have built a world on numbers, filled in the cracks when the foundations shifted, and applied new paint, but the central flaw was always there.  It’s eaten at the foundations since the first dollar was saved and reinvested.  It’s the root cause of all the tiny cracks I patched for you, and the thousands more rising to the surface.”

“Tell them aboutSchrödinger’s Cat,” she said.

He turned and frowned at her, and then the frown cracked into a crooked smile.

Ezekiel turned and started to ask Johnson a question, but Johnson held up a hand.  He focused intently on Angus. 

“I spent my life looking for flaws in the perfection of the data.  No matter how many times I found and fixed a problem, the imperfection screamed at me, and I had to go on.    All I was doing was plugging holes in a sinking ship.  There was never any perfection to mar, only a crumbling façade.”

Johnson stepped back from the monitor.  Behind him a red light began flashing slowly, and then another.  Alarms sounded.  Ezekiel turned and glanced at them.  He touched Johnson on the shoulder, but Johnson shrugged him off.

“It’s too late, Ezekiel,” he said.

Johnson reached out and pressed a button.  He leaned down and spoke into a microphone on the desk beside the monitor.

“Angus,” he said.

Angus turned and looked directly into the camera.

“I cannot speak to you,” he said.  “I have a message for Ezekiel.”

The old man stood very still.  Johnson turned to stare at him, and then pressed the microphone button again.

“Ezekiel is here.”

“Now is the time, old friend.  You must remember.  Mr. King and his minions have built this false idol of greed and gold, this mountain of numbers.  You know what will happen should it crumble, and yet, the choice remains yours.  Worship, or be taken by fire.”

“Your name is not Angus,” Ezekiel said.  His voice was soft, as though he was forcing memories from somewhere deep inside.

“What are you talking about?” Johnson said.  He shook Ezekiel hard.  “What do you mean he isn’t Angus?  Who is he?”

“Call the main office,” Ezekiel said, ignoring the question.  Get Nebbu…get Mr. King on the line.  Tell him … tell him that we choose the fire.”

The blinking lights and alarms lit the wall behind them like a holiday celebration.  Johnson ignored them.  He stared at Ezekiel, and then turned back to where Angus still stared through the camera and into his soul.

“Who are you?” Johnson asked.  “Who, in God’s name, are you?”

“Names are only patterns,” Angus replied.  Then he smiled.  “I am many, and I am one.  I would tell you that I am the way, the truth, and the light, but she – pointing at the girl – would tell you I am Hermes, or Mithras, or Odin, and she cannot lie.  It does not matter who I am.  What matters, and what has always mattered, is who you are, and what you will become.

“The numbers have failed.  In the beginning, there was the word – and that is all there has ever been. Plurality is divisive.  Heaven isn’t a chord, it’s a single, pure note.  Go, and learn to sing.”

The monitor went dark.  Power in the building flickered, and then dropped.  For a long moment auxiliary power tried to kick in and bring it back to life – and then died.  Ezekiel had gone.  Johnson’s sifted through unfamiliar memories.  He thought of the three in the other room, staring at blank screens that had been filled with numbers only moments before.  He mouthed their names, and almost laughed. 

“Shadrach, Meshech, and Abednego,” he said softly. How had he not seen?

It didn’t matter.  Without a backward glance he turned, left the room and the building and walked out into the world.  Behind him the monitor blinked to life without external power.  Angus and Prime stood, wrapped in a tight embrace.  Dark flecks danced up from the floor, peeled off the walls, and began to whirl.  The flecks grew, diving and dancing through the air until they enlarged to numbers, and words, letters and symbols.  The cloud whirled faster and darker until the room was obscured by a tangle of dark images and shifting patterns.

And then it was gone.  All that remained in the room was a battered spiral notebook and a number two pencil.  On the top sheet, the Hexagram symbolizing “Obstruction” had torn down its center.  On the streets beyond the building, men and women stepped out into bright sunlight…so bright, it burned.

The Green House – and a Free Story – and a Memory

greenhouse

This is a photo from June 26, 2016 Beth sent me of the VERY house in the story… the Green House.

AUTHOR’S NOTE:  Once, long ago, I was keynote speaker at a writer’s conference in the Lehigh Valley up north.  I didn’t really know what I was going to talk about.  I felt a little overwhelmed, because, at that point in my career, though I’d sold several novels and a handful or two of stories, I wasn’t sure I had the experience to speak on a subject that would prove useful.  Then…I started talking (it’s a recurring theme…). What I talked about was the fact that my ideas don’t just come to me.  Often – I live them.  I told them this story – it didn’t happen exactly as I wrote it, but it was closer than reality should have allowed. The house – the church – the guy who looked like Charles Manson… so much of this I did not make up.  Then I wrote in my buddy Wayne Allen Sallee – who was present that weekend, a weekend where I’d come to author Elizabeth Massie’s house for something we called Pseudocon – a writer’s retreat of sorts – a gathering of friends that I have to this day, though at least one has passed from us.  Many of these people are authors I now publish.  All of them have influenced my life, and my work.  If you go to Waynesboro, VA and turn between the two silos and see a house with a car in the front yard – radio playing – beside an old church.  Think twice before you ask for directions.

You Lookin’ For Herb?

It was getting dark, and the road ahead was fading quickly to shadows.  Dave looked about himself nervously, hoping against hope that he’d see something familiar, something that would let him know he was on the right track.  For about the thousandth time that hour, he cursed himself for forgetting to bring Beth’s phone number.

The Virginia mountains were no place to be lost at that time of night, especially when the only landmarks you could remember that might make everything all right were three giant grain silos off to one side of the road, and you could barely see the side of the road.  It was not starting out to be the best night of his life.

In the seat beside him, Jo was squirming uncomfortably, trying to look unconcerned, but not doing a very good job.  She was taking it like a real trooper.  It was their first time away together, and they hadn’t been dating that long.  His first fear had been that she’d be furious, and that their weekend would be ruined, all by his own ridiculous mistake.

The roads that turned off to either side were all numbered with identical signs.  He knew that the road he needed was eight hundred and something, and since he couldn’t make out a thing along the roadside, he opted for the one that seemed to ring a bell.  813.  It might not be the right one, but it was a place to start.

“I’m sorry about this,” he said, turning to Jo with a lopsided grin.  “I can’t believe her phone is unlisted!”

“It’s okay,” she said, returning the smile, if a bit nervously.  “Is this the road?”

“I’m not sure, but it looks familiar.  If this isn’t it, we’ll come back out here, make our way into town, and I’ll figure something else out.”

She nodded, and he drove on down the dark, deserted road, paying close attention to the many potholes and the steep ditches.  She had offered up her car for the trip, even letting him do the driving, and he had no intention of taking advantage of that trust.

On either side they passed farm houses, some showing lights, others seemingly deserted.  Nowhere was there a sign of life or a familiar landmark, and after a couple of short miles, he had to admit that he was lost.

Just as he’d begun to look for a place to turn around and head back the other way, he spotted one last house on the right side of the road.  There was a car parked in the front yard, its door open and the dome-light on.

“I’m going to pull in and ask whoever that is for directions,” he said with relief.  “It looks like they just got home!”

Jo didn’t say anything, but he noticed that she was gripping the armrest on the door tightly and her lips were compressed in a very, very poor imitation of a smile.  It didn’t help that there was an old abandoned church in the lot across the way from the house.

He stared at it, realizing almost immediately what seemed out of place.  There was a “FOR RENT” sign on the door!  A church for rent, and it came with its own small cemetery out back.  Swell.  How many gods could be in the market?

He pulled into the driveway behind where the other car was still parked, and he turned off the ignition.

“Wait here?” he asked.

Jo didn’t look enthusiastic about being left alone, but it was obvious that she’d rather be near the ignition and the gas pedal than walking into some strange country homestead and chatting up the locals.  That was fine.  Alone, he could hurry it along, find out where that damned road with the three silos was, and they’d be on their way.  Once they’d finally reached Beth’s and gotten settled in, he was certain things would be fine.  At least he hoped they would.

Crossing the unkempt yard quickly, lips twisted in a friendly smile, Dave approached the car.  It was obvious now that, though the door was open, the dome light and stereo on, the occupant of the vehicle had no intention of getting out and going inside.  Judging from the two flat tires on the closest side of the vehicle and the flowers growing up through the fender in front, it was more of a home addition than a vehicle these days.

Just as Dave was beginning to think that maybe Jo was right, maybe they would be better off just finding the place on their own, an arm slipped out from the car’s shadowy interior to dangle loosely over the door, which was slightly ajar, and a face appeared in the window.

If he hadn’t known the man was in prison, and that the idea was ludicrous, he would’ve sworn that the face belonged to Charlie Manson.  Long, greasy hair dangled past thin, emaciated shoulders, and the eyes that stared out from the shadows of that car were feral – like those of a rodent, or some wild predator, gleaming at him through the darkness.

“Yeah?” the man said, and the dry, rasping sound of his voice, followed by a rattling cough, brought things back to reality.  It wasn’t Charlie Manson, that was for sure.

“Excuse me,” Dave began brightly, holding out a hand that the other man ignored pointedly, “but we’re looking for the Lindbergh place – it’s a farm near here.  I think we must have taken a wrong turn off the main road back there.”

He pointed vaguely back the way they’d come, trying without success to remember just which number turnoff they’d actually taken.

“You lookin’ for Herb?” the man asked, his eyes slightly unfocused.  He acted as though he hadn’t heard a word Dave had said, and it was obvious that he was drunk, or stoned, or both.  At least Dave hoped he was.

“No,” he answered slowly.  “I don’t know any Herb – is he a relative of the Lindberghs?”

The man looked at him as if he were crazy.  “Nope, don’t think so.  He’ll be here in a little bit, though, you could wait.”

“But I don’t want to see Herb,” Dave burst out, exasperated.  “I’m just looking for directions to my friend’s farm.”

“I don’t know these parts too well,” the man told him slowly.  “You might go inside and ask – someone ought to be able to help you.”

Dave turned, giving Jo a “what can I do?” kind of shrug, and looked about himself quickly.  He saw the church next door, its graveyard pointed directly at him and the “FOR RENT” sign hanging at an ominous angle on the door.

“Shit,” he said under his breath.  He thanked the man quickly and headed for the front door of the place, hoping against hope that someone with half a brain would be inside, and that they could get out of this madhouse and back on the road quickly.

Just as he reached up to knock on the door, a breath of fetid air washed across his shoulder, and he realized that the man had slipped up behind him.  An odd sound was filling the air – at first he thought it was just his head buzzing with the sudden burst of adrenalin brought on by the man’s sudden appearance – but it was more than that.

A piano.  It was a tinny, off-key rendition of some sort of jazz tune, and it was coming from inside the house.  Without a word, the man reached around him and pushed the door open, letting the music escape into the night.

Dave coughed quickly, backing up as the scent of the inner rooms hit him.  There was a moldy, yellowed sheet hanging from the door frame like a curtain.  The place smelled musky, like a huge litter box, or an abandoned barn that rodents had taken over.

Moving ahead of him, and thankfully pushing the nasty, rotting sheet out of the way, the man preceded him inside.  With a deep breath, which he held as long as possible, Dave followed.  There was a light just to the right – another doorway, similarly curtained to the first.  It was from beyond this that the music was rolling forth, much louder now, still filled with so many discordant notes that he knew the instrument must be horribly out of tune.

Parting the “curtain” of the second room, he stepped inside and stopped cold.  Seated across the room at a run-down, lop-sided old piano, sat what appeared to be a very greasy Little Richard impersonator.  Dreadlocks hung down to shoulder length in back – greased or extremely dirty – and the man’s bony black fingers danced quickly over the chipped ivory of the keyboard.  He swayed from side to side slowly, lost in the music – such as it was.

Then, with a sudden lurch, he stopped playing and spun his head over his left shoulder in a single, fluid motion, catching Dave staring and meeting his gaze flatly.  There was no emotion in those eyes – no life of any sort, for that matter.  No color.  They were white, empty, blind eyes.  Dave shivered involuntarily and glanced away, but when he gathered the courage to turn back, the pianist was gazing at his own fingers again.  Dave couldn’t be certain what he’d seen, but the image of those milky-white orbs strobed in his mind.

“You looking for Herb?” the man asked quickly, not looking back again, or seeming to really care what Dave might be looking for.

Shaking his head, Dave answered.  “No.  I’m up here to visit some friends, the Lindberghs.  They live down one of these roads, eight hundred something.  I think the address is 870-B.”

The man continued to stare at him as if he hadn’t spoken at all.  “You aren’t lookin’ for Herb?”

Holding his anger in check, Dave started to tell him again what he was looking for, but the first man cut in again.

“I know a guy named Wayne Lindbergh.”

“Great!” Dave cut in quickly.  “Where does he live?  Maybe he lives nearby, or he’s related?”

“Lived in Richmond,” the man said flatly.  “Never been around here.”

Now anger was passing off into nervous fear.  This was going from bizarre straight into late-night horror movie reality way too quickly.

“You don’t know where 870-B might be?” he asked, starting to turn for the door.

“This here’s 111,” the man at the piano told him slowly, as if dredging the numbers up from far, far back in the abyss he’d once called a mind.

About 555 short, I’d say, Dave thought.  Aloud, he said, “Well, I guess we’ll just go and see if we can’t find it ourselves, then.  The road has three grain silos off to the side.”  He threw this in as a final hope, but no sparks flew.

“You can try the trailer park,” Manson said, pointing down the road one further than the turn off Dave had already taken.  “Someone there can probably help you.”

“Great,” Dave said, backpedaling quickly and pushing aside the curtain over the door.  It was time to get out of there and hit the road – quick.  Next would come the chainsaws, or the axes.

“You sure you don’t wanna see Herb?” Little Richard asked as he turned away.  “He’ll be comin’ by here later …”

That was it.  Dave turned and lurched toward the front door, pushing the tattered sheet aside and slamming the outer door open with his palm.  Somehow the Charles Manson-looking grease-ball had made his way back to the door at the same time.  He leaned in close as Dave barreled out into the night and said, “We are a commune of musicians.”

Right, Dave thought as he hurried to the driver’s side of the car and slammed the door behind himself.  Little Richard in there plays the piano, and you play the stereo out front, right?

“Did you find out anything?” Jo asked, taking in the expression on his face and the hurried, nervous movements he kept making as he started the car and backed out into the street.

“We aren’t staying for drinks, let’s just leave it at that,” he said, trying for a grin that never quite made it and turning to concentrate on the road ahead.

He drove to the next road, turned down it and headed toward the lights of the trailer park.  Swell.  More of the same, he was sure, but he had nothing else to try.  In the distance he saw two figures walking down the road, both with hair down halfway to their asses.  Shrugging, he pulled to the side of the road and asked about the silos.

“Oh, you mean 870?”  the first of the two boys asked.  They were both dressed normally enough – rock-group t-shirts and jeans, boots and leather belts.  “That’s two roads back, you can’t miss those silos, once you turn off.”

Thanking them, Dave turned around once more and headed back the way he’d come.  He found the Lindbergh farm easily enough, pulled in behind the other cars – everyone else, it seemed, had found the place in the daylight – and he and Jo went inside to join the party.

Everyone that was gathered there was a writer or an artist.  They were the “Guests of Honor” at Out-in-the-BooniesCON, or some-such thing, a local SF gathering that would begin the next day.

After everyone was settled, Dave told the story of their harrowing experience on the next road down, and Beth’s eyes widened in horror.

“You don’t mean the ‘”Green'” house, do you?  God, everyone wonders whether those guys are axe murders, or what.”

“One and the same,” Dave countered.  “Not axe murderers, though, I don’t believe.  They claim to be a commune of musicians.”

Everyone laughed, and after a few more drinks and a few more stories they all turned in for the night, the old house and its eerie inhabitants all but forgotten.

The convention had ended early, and after everyone had gathered back at the farm, Wayne and Mark convinced Dave to go back to the old Green house.

“Let’s go see those guys, man,” Wayne said.  “What’s the harm?  A beat-up piano, a few old sheets – maybe we could take a guitar with us and jam?”

“You’ve got to be kidding,” Dave had grinned at him in exasperation.  He was not kidding.  Insane, probably, but not kidding.

So there they were, the three of them, the women having opted for something a bit less adventurous, like horseback riding, walking down the road toward the old house and its neighboring churchyard.  Dave wasn’t sure whether he wanted to go there at all, but he wasn’t going to back down if the other two were going.

They made the expected wisecracks about the “FOR RENT” sign on the church, wondering which ancient god would take the owners up on it.  Mark did a pretty good rendition of the slinking, clubfooted pace of a Romeroesque zombie, pointing at the graveyard and saying, “New God moved in, made us leave, He did.  Said, no Christian God here, no Christian dead here, left us just like that, homeless.”

Dave’s laughter cut off midway through the first chuckle when they rounded the corner.  The car wasn’t there.  The weeds weren’t even pressed down where it might have been there before.  He turned, eyes wide, and just stared at his companions, who were looking back at him like he was the lunatic.

“Maybe it wasn’t this place,” he said dubiously.  He knew that it was.  The angle on the old graveyard was just as it had been the night before.  Moving as if he were in a trance, he made his way to the front door and made as if to knock on it.  There was no need.  The door stood a few inches ajar, hanging from one broken hinge that was half-rusted through.

Inside the sheets hung, just as he’d said, and he brushed his way past them both in a rush, heedless of the many spider’s’ webs and scuttling things that shot out in all directions as he passed.

The piano was gone, too.  There was nothing in the house at all, in fact.  Nothing but the smell, which he remembered only too well, dust, and a family of sparrows that shot out the window in a burst of sound and feathers, nearly stopping his heart.

“Telling the tall tales again, eh?” Mark observed, looking around the place and brushing a cobweb off his arm.  “Commune of musicians?”

Dave staggered to the window, his face ashen, and stared across the lot outside at the church.  Something else was wrong.  The sign – the ludicrous, cockeyed “FOR RENT” sign was gone.

Then he heard it.  It was faint, at first, winding its way through his senses so deceptively that he thought at first he was imagining it.  It was the music, the awful, discordant piano music.  The piano was gone, but the music lived on, it seemed.

“There!” he cried, turning wildly to where his friends were examining some dusty relics in the back corner of the room.  “Do you hear it?”

Not waiting for an answer, he rushed back out into the yard.  The music was louder there, coming from the direction of the old church.  There were lights on, too, he saw, coming from the windows between the cracks of the old boards that held them shut.  He stopped, his eye caught by a small pamphlet lying on the ground at his feet.

Picking it up, he peeled it apart carefully where the morning dew had glued the pages together.

The First Church of Light and Vision, learn the wisdom of the stars.

There was more, but he couldn’t quite make it out.  It said something about the coming of a God, or a savior, or perhaps just a traveling evangelist.  He couldn’t quite make out the name.  It looked like HE..B.  He turned to show his find to Wayne and Mark, but they were nowhere to be seen.  Frowning, he returned to the old house, looking carefully through each room.  Gone

“All right, man,” he said aloud.  “This isn’t funny.”  He figured they were outside, hiding and waiting for him, and he was in no mood to play their game.  “Let’s just get back to the house, okay?”

No answer.  He made his way into the yard again and something drew him toward the church.  Maybe they’d just gone over there to check out the music.  It could be that the graveyard extended to the other side of the church, that there was another house, which would explain the music.  He started forward, watching every shadowy nook where his two friends might be lying in wait, and approached the old church.

As he drew nearer, it became obvious that they had somehow managed to get that piano into the church itself during the night.  The music was coming from inside, and, against his better judgment, he moved to the door at the end of the building.  There were plenty of cracks in the old wood, he could just look inside and see what was going on for himself.

Before he could bend down to have a look, however, the door burst open.  Light flowed out and around him, surrounding him on all sides.  Charles Manson stood framed in the doorway, his greasy hair actually combed back and braided and his arms spread wide.  Where there had been dull, mindless oblivion in his eyes the night before, now they burned with a strange, wild light.

“I knew you would return,” he said, grabbing Dave’s arm and propelling him inside.

Across the room, Little Richard sat with his back to the two of them, dancing his hands over the keys of the ancient piano.  This wasn’t what had captured his eyes, though.  There was an altar at the front of the room, and on it a feast – or what appeared to be a feast – was laid out.  Mark and Wayne stood there at the table, turning to meet his confused gaze with wide, feral grins.  He saw that their eyes were alight with the same odd spark as Manson’s.

Wayne waved to him, and he saw what was in his friends hand.  It was a leg-bone – a human leg bone – and the skin was rotted and flayed from it, black with dirt and maggots.  As he tried to pull back, retching violently, Mark called out to him, slipping back into the odd, Monty-Pythonesque accent from earlier.

“I was wrong, Davey, so wrong.  Herb don’t want the Christian dead to go, we have to get rid of them ourselves!”

As his head hammered to the wild, incomprehensible banging of the piano, Dave heard the doors crash shut behind him.  There was another figure behind the altar, taller, darker, blending into the shadows themselves.  As the light began to course through him, eating its way to his eyes, he felt the first pangs of hunger, and he moved forward, moved to the combined beat of piano and stereo – the car had somehow been parked to the left, behind the pews, and Manson had resumed his seat.

As he reached for a rotting hand, he began to wonder.  He wondered what instrument he would play.

This story and many others are available in my collection: The Call of Distant Shores – many of the stories in that book, including the title story, are born of vivid memories.

More about History – My fictional settings – Nevermore Blog Tour

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boopI must have been on a history kick.  Today’s post, while not like yesterdays, which dealt with using history and research to find and flesh out ideas for your fiction, is also about history.  Personal history.  In this post – which is hosted by FLY HIGH – one of the fine blogs on my Nevermore blog tour, I talk about the settings I’ve created – San Valencez, Old Mill, Random Illinois, and where they came from.  I promise I’ll be back to posting about some other things soon, but I’m committed to getting a few of you to actually read Nevermore, a Novel of Love, Loss & Edgar Allan Poe.  Anyone who thinks that 30 books and more than 25 years of gathering fans makes it easier to find readers isn’t paying attention.  I have a lot of friends, even more acquaintances, get a lot of positive comments and good mentions by others – but I am my own publisher on this book.  I know how many copies have, and have not sold, and I know that despite the huge push I’ve been giving this in every venue I can find, most people are saying, oh, that looks cool – and walking away…  I want more of you to read my book.  After all, I wrote it for you…

Here is a short bit of today’s post:

“Anyone familiar with my work (and I say this with a smile, because I’m aware that’s not as large a group as it ought to be) knows that I love history.  I also have opinions about it, which I’ve written about before.  I doubt very sincerely that very much of what we know of the events of our past is accurate.  We have history books.  We have journalistic accounts.  We have diaries and biographies and even stories passed through families from generation to generation, but all of them are colored by society, prejudice, and simple error.  None of that is what matters. What matters is that we keep that past alive – that we don’t let our history escape us.

I live in a state with one of the longer domestic histories, North Carolina.  When British governors ruled the day, Quakers inhabited this area; plantations grew where forests and fields had stood.  In other words, Americans put down roots.  Thankfully, those roots are deep here.  There are homes dating back to the 1600s.  There are families who have lived here – literally –for centuries.  A lot of the history has been preserved, and there is more out there to be unearthed.  We regularly haunt estate auctions, thrift stores, anywhere something might turn up that has a secret…” =>Read the entire post over at the FLYING HIGH blog!

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Read about mining history for your fiction at Christine’s Words!

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Read My post – Everybody Loves a Mystery – here in this blog!

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